tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-82446308394552638532024-03-07T19:39:08.373-08:00The Pathway to Eden's GardenThis blog is just for me to write memoirs...and for others to comment.Its a collection of my copy written poems, short stories, and thoughts...Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-79436537656977604542010-11-20T18:47:00.000-08:002010-11-20T18:47:52.866-08:00Venting...The past few months have been just a blur....<br />
Times past, friendships last as long as the sun...<br />
Been there done that.... is what I told him...<br />
Don't need another ornament to hang on me...<br />
I don't want to be a cheap thrill for him...<br />
Not going to cheat me out of my life is what I told him...<br />
<br />
Can't make into what I would like you to be...<br />
I am not the potter...<br />
It's just some things you should have learned from your father...<br />
Your mother, I can never be...<br />
That life of teaching you is just not for me...<br />
I can't see myself, marrying a child...<br />
A clown, and nothing brighter than the clothes you wear...<br />
I stare, because You have so much potential...<br />
Influential, Your thoughts were to me...<br />
Now I see, they were just thoughts... No life behind the words...<br />
No courage to see them thru... So, despair, I am talking to you...<br />
I am no longer looking to be with you... No longer looking for you to control the very fiber of my life... <br />
A wife is what I will be...<br />
A graduate is what I have proven to be...<br />
A survivor is what I will always be...<br />
A child of the most high GOD is what was chosen of me...Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-83829014642419272622010-06-06T21:38:00.000-07:002010-06-06T21:38:45.901-07:00Made for me...Is it just me...<br />
but the decisions that change your life the most...<br />
really don't give you much time to decide...<br />
<br />
Which path is right...<br />
Do I go left and continue where I left off last...<br />
But even God says its not good to live in the past...<br />
<br />
Do I go right...<br />
In pursue what is new...<br />
Keep going to seek the correct view...<br />
<br />
One guy... the night, like the wolf<br />
he'll stray...<br />
come back, and every command he'll obey...<br />
<br />
Other guy... the day, like the sun..<br />
hard worker, the stresser...<br />
the new life I've begun...<br />
<br />
People say... <br />
Girl, leave that wolf be...<br />
At times I think they are right...<br />
but he just might be the one for me...<br />
<br />
So, what do I do...<br />
I leave both alone...<br />
neither one are ready...<br />
Neither one are grown...<br />
<br />
They are both minors to me<br />
merely a show to see<br />
How big they have become in stature...<br />
But they're mindstates begates laughter...<br />
<br />
for they are as young as the morning dew...<br />
and last just as long...<br />
I could be wrong...<br />
but its best not to play games...<br />
<br />
cut all ties and stay away...<br />
so my decision has been made...Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-57859437675018976182010-06-01T19:25:00.000-07:002010-06-01T19:25:35.770-07:00Walking AloneIn all of my 23 years of living, I have learned that becoming perfect without guidance is both hard and self destructive. I have learned that even the holiest of people are still sinning. No one walking this earth is perfect. I can honestly admit that I have sinned and continued to sin knowing God is not pleased with my life. He has taken my joy, my love, my worldly possession away at one time and left me all alone, just to show me that he is all that I need. I have to admit though, it was a lonely time for me. The only reason people are successful at being "SAVED" is because they have help. Accountability partners, friends who live their life according to the word of GOD. Today, June 1st, 2010 I can say that I don't have any friends, no real ones. NO ONE is consistent enough in their walk to be honest and bare my sins to them. God says that "Iron sharpens Iron" but I am around nothing but brass, and wood. It breaks my heart to think that I could ever put my trust in the people that I have known all my life knowing they will ultimately fail. God knows that I desire to be strong enough to stand alone and powerful enough to draw people into his kindgom. But I am being honest and realizing that will never happen if I continue to stay around "lukewarm", selfish, compromising, christians. They are human just like I am. Once upon a time, I was with nothin but holy rollers, and I was MISERABLE. Because their holiness was conditional, their love was temporal, and I could not trust them as far as I could pick them up and throw them. The one thing I mostly ask God for are true believers, people that will not abandon me, backbite me, or lie to me. I ask God for people that I can commune with on a daily basis, hold me accountable for my actions, and love me thru my stumbles... If there are such people out there, and I am and have been reaching out... then answer this for me... Why am I still walking alone?Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-3333314602169633232010-05-14T19:26:00.001-07:002010-05-14T19:26:09.874-07:00A Different type of Affair...I am lying here believing, but I have to admit…<br />
The older I get, the image of you drifts…<br />
When I was younger, you were the guy that fought away all my fears…<br />
As I got older you were the guy to wipe away my tears…<br />
My dream romance, when I sleep is only when you exist…<br />
But when my eyes open, it is you I begin to miss…<br />
My super hero man, I have yet to meet…<br />
Could it be…you lying next to me…?<br />
Is it you the man standing next to me…?<br />
Is it you, which last kissed my lips…?<br />
Is it you, the last to grip my hips…?<br />
Or are you a fantasy, wishing to come true…?<br />
I wrap my arms around your neck, just to continue holding onto you.<br />
I cover you in my kisses, that way you seem real…<br />
I believe your hands are touching me, just to give me something to feel…<br />
I believe you are the one for me…giving me time to kill…Just before you come for me, and are my knight, shining shield…Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-50098204385722524222010-05-10T23:30:00.000-07:002010-05-10T23:30:38.280-07:00Garbage day.SO far Gone I am lost...<br />
Didn't know how much taking a wrong turn would cost...<br />
As I think back to how I was living...<br />
All the things and people I was befriending...<br />
<br />
It has Officially changed me...<br />
To a woman I no longer recognize...<br />
Despised by my own reflection...<br />
Depression, is not only what I have sunk in...<br />
Blue, is not the color of my eyes I see...<br />
deep down I drown in the bitter pit of me...<br />
<br />
The life I wished, has come and gone...<br />
from men I've kissed and drugged along...<br />
Unbearable is what they have become to be...<br />
Unbreakable is what I have shown of me...<br />
<br />
I was taken...broken down to the core...<br />
Life's journey scars, and wisdom sores...<br />
I have leaped into bounds of different destinies...<br />
I have slept beyond time's destiny...<br />
<br />
A new alarm clock, has awaken me...<br />
A LIFE NO LONGER MY OWN...<br />
I have chosen another to lead in this skin...<br />
A life of joy due to many repentance of sin...<br />
<br />
I cry out to him,like a woman in labor...<br />
tapered down like a cut, merely vapor...<br />
he said I brought you back down to your essence...<br />
back to my presence...<br />
my glow...effervecent...<br />
<br />
I have stolen a key God,<br />
and I am no longer worthy to unlock the door that it belongs too...<br />
But you, God have to Guide me thru...<br />
You are not done with me I Hope...<br />
<br />
With his spirit...in me... I choked...<br />
and all the bile, and mess, stress of each year and day came out...<br />
I shout, because I have victory now...<br />
All I need to do is believe it...<br />
<br />
thru God's spirit, I can achieve it...<br />
Why God, have I gone so far away...<br />
was it because I was lusting astray...<br />
<br />
God I ask you, to please draw near,<br />
I am alone and debted to you in fear...<br />
God I am no longer welcomed into peace...<br />
But with you Lord, I will meet...<br />
<br />
God help restore my love and faith...<br />
wash the bitterness from my tongue so that I can no longer taste...<br />
God help me. Have mercy again...<br />
for I am not only your child, I am a returning friend...Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-78771796981528428662010-05-08T22:51:00.001-07:002010-05-08T22:51:03.234-07:00Good bye my Love...I have to be honest<br />
at best with you<br />
Show you my feelings...<br />
Give you the truth...<br />
<br />
I love you<br />
with all of me..<br />
Would have given you all of me..<br />
But you were only willing to take it<br />
Shaken,<br />
To the core of my foundations...<br />
<br />
You scorned me...<br />
At times I deserved it...<br />
The same time I didn't understand what type of love we were making...<br />
It doesn't matter now because you are toxic...<br />
Venomous, to where my heart can no longer take it...<br />
You broke down my shell, but now I have replaced it...<br />
<br />
Take a look around and tell me what you see...<br />
What I see, is that your heart is no longer with me...<br />
You have chosen another over me...Yourself...<br />
You have walked over me, so there's nothing left...<br />
<br />
But I am finished...<br />
I am done...<br />
From the depths of the rivers<br />
and the heat of the sun<br />
<br />
Has burned away any bridge I have built for you....<br />
No more crossing over...I am no longer here for you...<br />
<br />
I have tried...and away with me you pushed<br />
Walking away with my destiny....my love...<br />
Leaving our past in the dust...<br />
<br />
Its not heartless to say..<br />
that you weren't worth my love...<br />
Because once this poem is over<br />
You'll give your shoulder a shrug...<br />
and dial up the next one...<br />
and the search will begin<br />
A girl you will befriend...<br />
and then you will feel some type of love again...<br />
The love will be returned<br />
and like a resurfacing burn<br />
you will do it again...<br />
The venom from your stinger will strike again...<br />
and you will hurt her like the others...<br />
To no asunder<br />
Truly born of a woman...<br />
Human hearts can't take guilt<br />
so it wilts, and becomes hard<br />
until the top layers begin to discard<br />
and the true emptiness is revealed from with in...<br />
<br />
Rebirthing you...<br />
Changing your name does not reinvent a new...<br />
It disguises the old<br />
Until your actions manifests the truth<br />
<br />
The real....Not even you can face...<br />
Permutation...Not even you can change<br />
So you can hate me, pretend I never existed...<br />
Even say a Big FUCK you<br />
Because the truth of the matter is that I loved you...Hopelessly<br />
But I am now walking away Clear and Free...<br />
Good bye Aaron...Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-69960970196688251222010-03-28T22:36:00.000-07:002010-03-28T22:36:59.010-07:00Blogger Buzz: Blogger integrates with Amazon Associates<a href="http://buzz.blogger.com/2009/12/blogger-integrates-with-amazon.html">Blogger Buzz: Blogger integrates with Amazon Associates</a>Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-68710417328549354522010-01-03T19:41:00.000-08:002010-01-03T19:41:05.727-08:00Venting....the Have NotsI have confused my have nots for desires...<br />
Tried to figure out why things aren't the way I would like them to be...<br />
Trying to box in the solution, when the problem is me...<br />
My thinking, my mentality...<br />
<br />
I new year brings new fears of hope<br />
But if you can't swallow the change, then you will choke<br />
the people closest to you, will hurt you the most<br />
SO I push off, back and I wait<br />
<br />
I debate, to see if you are worthy to be loved by me<br />
I see that you believe that you love is the key to my locked heart,<br />
The more I drew near, the further we pushed apart...<br />
<br />
Its crazy, because I think you could care even less <br />
the love you profess,<br />
I don't believe<br />
so leave, leave me, my heart and space alone<br />
Your treachery is proven, and lies has already been unfold<br />
I told you the truth about my have nots<br />
But I open the chest to show you yours...<br />
<br />
You no longer have a friend,<br />
You no longer have a shoulder to cry on,<br />
You no longer have a heart to hide in,<br />
A space to live in,<br />
You no longer have me...<br />
<br />
Welcome to the have nots...Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-78155940583377195282010-01-03T18:54:00.000-08:002010-01-03T18:54:47.204-08:00Just Sharing the Word of The Living God....Jesus ChristOur Joy, Our ability to laugh in the face of difficulties, has more to do with how we view God than how he views us. At times many of us fear that maybe God isnt all that interested in our lives. We've been taught the "his eye is on the sparrow so we know he watches us" mentality, but we are far from convinced. Jeremiah 1: talks about "God knows us, He knew us before we were formed in our mothers stomache"(paraphrased please look up in text). Sometimes we see our lives running counter to our desires, wishes and prayers; we then assume God doesn't care. When these Kinds of thoughts take over and undermine our faith, we have ceased to live in response to the abundance of God. The Key word in this phrase is response. Most of us have a good head knowledge of God's abundance, but we often find ourselves unable to respond to that abundance. That inability to respond possibly comes from a growing fear that God is truly unaware of where we are and how we are. When this happens, we need bolstering an dthere's no better source for faith bolstering than Gods living word...I am not on a Haphazard course of my own poor choosing. Psalm 16:11 assures me, "you have made known to me the path of life," I choose to believe God will indeed make life's path known to me, and that where I am on that path is no surprise to him.Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-2343265959061768382009-12-15T16:20:00.000-08:002009-12-15T16:20:45.355-08:00The winding of the year...With the winding of each year...<br />
pouring of each tear symbolizes growth...<br />
From the people you lost...gained or loved the most..<br />
To the inconsiderates, manipulates, concious liars...<br />
I transpire to continue to inspire the hopeless<br />
<br />
I focus on a new vision<br />
a new decision to cut those worthless things out like an incision...<br />
As I transition into a new year, I hear a new call that I must answer...<br />
If I continue to play deaf, my respect for self will become less and less potent...<br />
SO its important to stay real<br />
On all the things I feel, I have to confess that deficating thru the soul helps best... Getting out all of the bile, of soul ties and mess, Lies and family stress, At best, I get better every year. Life of trials, yet of cheer.. Not feeling myself with lies, and mistakes, but of drives and high stakes of achievement...<br />
<br />
Excuse me for my bareavement of loss hope..<br />
The hopeless ness of my eyes shall never show...<br />
I will continue, I will continue to strive strong...<br />
In my eyes I could do no wrong...<br />
So I am awaken by this ultimate power of Greatness...<br />
I live to to breed Faithfulness in the Most high God<br />
If I am called I must answer...For the the fate of the world I carry like a lattern. For I have my own light to shine....<br />
In due season as the seasons change...<br />
I maintain a front of the same...image.<br />
FOr this thesis I live it...<br />
Contagious like a satisfying scratch<br />
I match each blow with a hit of my own<br />
I become strong...stronger than the enemy...<br />
The devils in sheeps clothing that befriended me...<br />
I laugh...sitting here waiting until your time is done<br />
Because you don't Fall down...then I will come up...<br />
as my face rises, there will be no tears...<br />
For the end of time has come...in the winding of the year.Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-83748443135411347552009-12-14T21:16:00.000-08:002009-12-14T21:16:50.295-08:00Earnest PrayerDear Heavenly Father,<br />
I have to confess...<br />
that my spirit is dirty<br />
and my mind is a mess...<br />
My image is distorted<br />
and my life full of stress...<br />
<br />
I was afraid, but you said not to fear<br />
For my angels are around you, and I am always near<br />
For God so loved the world, he sent his son<br />
Ended the enemies journey before it begun!<br />
<br />
God has all the victory, Praises from my trials too<br />
Showed me the way, through my storms you've brought me thru...<br />
Dear Heavenly Father I just want to say Thank You!Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-87896674754080624452009-12-01T15:33:00.000-08:002009-12-01T15:33:18.611-08:00LIVE Daughter Live...As I sit here and think, <br />
I remember, a time before many septembers of a happy family.<br />
The one whose structure was stable...<br />
who Followed the Holy trinity...<br />
<br />
As I sit here it comes to me...<br />
where the structure broke up this dynasty...<br />
He killed the hope in me...<br />
It Broke the heart in me...<br />
It stole the Joy of me...<br />
It controled my everything...<br />
It kept my lips from speech...<br />
so bondage took over me...<br />
<br />
As I sit here it awakens me...<br />
He is not an "IT" he's my destiny...<br />
He breaks the chains of depravity...<br />
unlocks my joys, peaces sanity...<br />
He says I am your savior, come with me...<br />
I'll show you truth, if you believe in me...<br />
I'll be your roof if you live in me...<br />
I am the way to truly set you free...<br />
<br />
See those other gods don't compare to me...<br />
I am wiser, apart of the trinity...<br />
I report to a father that's above me...<br />
I bring a spirit who loves for me...<br />
So daughter Look to me for your safe keep...<br />
In me the devil has no power...<br />
no locks or chains that can devour you...<br />
So as we sit here... He says get up...No time for sitting still, its time to move on...Move away from the pain and the old temptations... Fill your life with God's creations...Be a blessing to those who don't deserve it...Come out of deceit and be done with it... Always tell the truth to get rid of the burden.... Climb out of immorality...into eternity...LIve, daughter...LIVE!Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-26851141590617681632009-12-01T15:21:00.000-08:002009-12-01T15:21:15.502-08:00Just Believe...and be Restored.I read that God can take your trouble and change it into treasure. yoour sorrow can become joy not just a momentary smile but a deep, new joy.It will be abubbling experience of new hope that puts a brightness in your eyes and a song in your heart.In the midst of the darkness you will learn lessons you might never have learned in the day. We all have seen dreams turn into ashes ugly things, hopeless experiences but beauty for ashes is God's exchange. Offer yourself to God and ask for a spirit of praise so your whole being will be restored...B.Johnson....He's waiting...Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-36299504891457348952009-11-06T15:59:00.000-08:002009-11-06T15:59:01.567-08:00Just keep reading...I lie down, motionless..<br />
feeling emotiionless<br />
living without focus<br />
have so many talents, but can't make the most of them.<br />
<br />
Torn, between dreams and reality<br />
trying to build a bridge where the two can meet<br />
look in the mirror and see two different me's'<br />
I see a girl 5'3 with an average build<br />
egyptian eyes, secrets filled<br />
<br />
I am a fraud in one dimension<br />
embarrassed by the truth, so I will not mention<br />
what am I doing, who am I and where will I be?<br />
I have an updated perscription but I still can't see<br />
<br />
So I stop,<br />
I kneel,<br />
I ask God to begin to reveal<br />
What God, What do you see?<br />
Right now, I can't see beyond me...<br />
<br />
Well daughter that's because you are selfish...<br />
until you feel for someone else<br />
your life will feel breathless<br />
<br />
God I need help, God please send me help<br />
I have equipped you with what you need, so look up and stop blaming yourself.<br />
I, God feel like I am a lost hope<br />
Filled with all type of bad memories, <br />
drowning, and trying to stay afloat.<br />
<br />
God hear me, not really trying to yell...<br />
God help me to ensure I won't fail<br />
All I know is I have a story to tell...<br />
slowly but surely it will unveil...<br />
so just keep reading...Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-22794874820782835522009-11-05T21:48:00.000-08:002009-11-05T21:48:24.905-08:00God says...Although my feelings feel real<br />
God says, "the heart is deceitful, who can tame it? <br />
Although the world around me says to live life to the fullest..<br />
God says, "Be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.(Romans 12:9)<br />
Although I am not worthy<br />
God says, I am the apple of his, before I was formed in my mother womb he new me (Jeremiah 1)<br />
<br />
This is the Truth, although you read all the scriptures and like my poems this is what the Lord says to just the proclaimers and not the doers of his word...Jeremiah 23: Woe to the shepherds who are destroying and scattering the sheep of my pasture! Declares the Lord. Therefore this is what the Lord the God of Israel, says to the shepherds who tend my people: "Because you have scattered my flock on them, I will bestow punishment on you for the evil you have done, " Declares the Lord. I myself will gather the remnant of my flock out of all the countries where I have driven them and will bring them back to their pastrue, where they will be fruitful and increase in numbe. I will place shepherds over them who will rend them and they will no longer be afraid or terrified, nor will any be missing, declares the Lord. If God does not lead you to speak, then don't speak! I have learned that even if you want to encourage someone, ask God what to say to that person, because what you want to say may not be the same as what God wants them to hear. God bless you all!Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-69819585086723839832009-11-02T22:30:00.000-08:002009-11-02T22:30:13.189-08:00I asked GodIn my time of prayer I knelt<br />
To tell the Most High how I felt<br />
to confess my sins and other filth<br />
hoping our bridge would be rebuilt...<br />
<br />
I confessed about the materialist lusts<br />
my bills, wills, and all the unjust<br />
tears streaming because of my rutt<br />
God healed me with just one touch...<br />
<br />
He says hello my daughter I was waiting on your call<br />
Just a matter of time before you fall<br />
You can't go a whole day and not speak to me at all<br />
<br />
Come to me, and I will draw near<br />
In my word speaks a true love so don't fear<br />
I love you so much my dear, I hear...<br />
<br />
I say God please hear my crying plea<br />
if you would not punishment for all the deceit<br />
I promise to do better just wait and see<br />
I am here by myself walking thru this journey.<br />
<br />
He says you are alone because you choose to be, <br />
find loving people with my spirit, in your chosen ministry<br />
Be careful for those who look like me, <br />
devils they are in sheeps clothing <br />
<br />
I say God, but I am afraid<br />
He says I built you as sturdy as a tree<br />
For you to bear fruit and be strong spiritually<br />
so pray for guidance and I will lead thee.<br />
<br />
God I am praying, and praying, but do you really hear<br />
you say you will draw close, but you don't seem near<br />
I shut my mouth so your voice I may hear<br />
But your silence is evident, its so loud and clear<br />
<br />
Where is your faith daughter, I am standing right here<br />
God I need your love, I am failing down here<br />
I am around so much murder, so much despair<br />
what do I go, who seems to care<br />
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God says: Cast your cares upon me I truly want to know<br />
all about you inside including the feelings you don't show.<br />
I am more than a God above your head, I am he who records all the tears you have shed. I am he who is ruler of all, both big accurances and small, I am your protector so do not fear, If you draw close than I am near.<br />
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God hear me and take heed<br />
you are who I desire most, you are all I need. So when doubt tries to over come me I will say I believe in all that God says, it will rebut and say how do you know...I will reply because I asked God...Thank you God, I love you!Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-14318546536608076462009-10-31T19:21:00.000-07:002009-10-31T19:21:16.553-07:00I find myself...I am sitting here laughing...<br />
parked two cars down, you cheating on me...and I see you.<br />
I want to hear the new excuse...<br />
I find myself following you everyday, just to see what the new one looks like, and to hear the new excuse.<br />
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I am throwing up...<br />
I lie here next to you, and cringe just thinking about all the nasty people you have been with... How their dirt and filth is all in between our marital sheets..<br />
I find myself sick to my stomach when I look at you, and the things you do to me...<br />
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I am on a ramp page...<br />
I have thrown all of your things in the trash and in bags, all over the front lawn, Bottles of colognes burned and all of your photos are gone...<br />
I find myself getting rid of everything that is you, I used to get sick when I saw you now its the mere scent of you...<br />
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I am crying...<br />
not of sorrow, but of joy... made room for a man of God...and threw away a boy<br />
I find myself shouting, and praising God...For that reason only I sob.<br />
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I am different...<br />
Everyday I wake up to clean sheets, and Joy in my heart..<br />
Work outs and a brand new start... My own business, and my schedule only to follow...No longer smelling your unfaithfulness, no more lies do I have to swallow...<br />
I find myself looking in the mirror and loving me, no longer dealing with mess, or a person who cant really stand me. I have a God upstairs that looks down on me with Real LOVE...Nothing can shake my faith, I feel his strength even from above. See God says to Delight yourself in him and he will give me the desires of my heart. So much time wasted I don't know where to start. God is my everything, and you are just a faint memory. You are the mere image of what a man isn't supposed to be. I am happy, I am shouting and there's nothing you can do. Because, Today my past mistake...I find myself without you....Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-74173201450727013662009-10-08T14:25:00.001-07:002009-10-08T14:25:34.871-07:00Enjoying God through experience...Go to God in prayer. If you are hungry for him , cry out to be filled. He will fill you" with an inexpressible and glorious joy" (1Pet 1:8) Thank God that he is drawing you to himself. If you do not have this hunger ask God to fill you with desire for him, to extend your intellectual beliefs about him from your head to your heart. Pray that you may "grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ....So that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God" (Ephesians 3:18-19)Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-21538278137168068062009-10-08T14:22:00.000-07:002009-10-08T14:22:46.495-07:00Enjoying God through the word....Read John 6:35-66 This teaching of Jesus brings about a parting of the ways: From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him" (Jn 6:66). What is so offensive brings life Jn 6:53-55. Without Jesus you cannot have eternal life. You must go beyond intellectual belief to a life sustaining relationship. your relationship with Jesus is your life. Unfortunately, this is where many refuse to follow. If you are hungry for Jesus, praise GOD! He is drawing you to himself. Be thankful for your thirst God is working in your life! Danger comes from those who are not water out of the room. Jesus says to the Pharisees, "You shut the kingdom of heaven in men's Faces. You Y9ourselves do not enter, nor will you let those enter who are trying to" Matt 23:13 If you are hungry for Jesus, reach out to him. Don't allow anyone or anything to stand between you and the one who can satisfy.Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-65447327188771008112009-10-07T08:13:00.001-07:002009-10-07T08:13:20.482-07:00Mother of Slain Chicago Teen Says Adults are 'Afraid'---this shouldn't be! Fight back!<a href="http://www.bvblackspin.com/2009/10/05/mother-of-slain-chicago-teen-says-adults-are-afraid/">Mother of Slain Chicago Teen Says Adults are 'Afraid'</a><br /><br />Shared via <a href="http://addthis.com">AddThis</a><br />Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-49525726731059122582009-10-07T07:54:00.001-07:002009-10-07T07:54:35.704-07:00Winnie-the-Pooh's Back, But Who Invited The Otter? - ParentDish<a href="http://www.parentdish.com/2009/10/06/winnie-the-poohs-back-but-who-invited-the-otter/?icid=main|main|dl3|link4|http%3A%2F%2Fwww.parentdish.com%2F2009%2F10%2F06%2Fwinnie-the-poohs-back-but-who-invited-the-otter%2F">Winnie-the-Pooh's Back, But Who Invited The Otter? - ParentDish</a><br /><br />Shared via <a href="http://addthis.com">AddThis</a><br />Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-65307021918256946202009-09-10T15:36:00.000-07:002009-09-10T15:37:24.534-07:00Forgotten PromiseBeyond me<br />I see<br />God<br />Through his eyes He has shown me<br />What lies behind me, the grave?<br />Through his son’s blood I can be saved…<br />So, through faith just call his name…<br />He says, I am your love<br />So to all those who have hurt you, I have put to shame…<br />So no more crying, he wipes away my tears...<br />No more hiding, he took away my fears<br />No more wounds from fighting, he says I am now your shield.<br />A true warrior, in u I have built<br />A blossoming flower, which will never wilt…<br />He says I am your love…<br />Through my eyes your are blessed<br />And with time this love will be expressed…<br />I am your source…<br />Through me you will stay on course…<br />Through me, I have made galaxies, within galaxies<br />Spent, rained in and out of time…<br />But you, my daughter you are my prized…<br /> Possession...<br />Your soul is my obsession…<br />Your worship, I truly dwell in…<br />Your temple is where I am liven’<br />Truly made in my triage’s image<br />So within your parts I have hidden,<br />The keys to success, for your womb to birth in…<br />All the answers you need are within…<br />All the strength to move forward is already been given.<br />When things here get rough, I am not far<br />I’ll be coming back again…that’s my promise…Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8244630839455263853.post-37687155400008112522009-09-09T21:50:00.000-07:002009-09-09T22:06:25.205-07:00My Worship....God...<br />To You,<br />I am beauty...<br />Gorgeous in all your favor...<br />Resting in the relief of a victorious savior....<br /><br />I am Me...<br />Dancing in the Gardens of my heavens, Deepened vails of edens<br />Your presence....I live in...<br />This is my worship...<br /><br />God...<br />To Me<br />You are liberty...<br />Truth, and love in his simplicity...<br />Journeying upon my shoulder like a Dove...<br />Rests a promise from your son...<br /><br />In this I am reminded of an awaiting paradise...<br />With your hands, I land, lump as clay<br />As I lay...and as you push I form a better shape...<br /><br />This is our worhip....<br /><br />As each eye is formed, I get a better glimpse...<br />On my lips, you place, an everlasting kiss...<br />Thru my airways enter my lungs....<br />a new remedy for hurt...a whispering song...<br /><br />A song you force a boast....In me lies a treasure, I pleasure in most...He is my being...<br />Your thriving Holy Ghost....<br /><br />This is my worship...<br /><br />God,<br />As your word walked in his form<br />Coming out of a new cacoon, a new chapter is born...<br /><br />Pushing to break free of my shell...<br />Written on my toungue is a message to tell...<br />Out comes rhythm...melodic scripture...<br />His is the living word...I am the picture...<br /><br />You cultivate the lyrics...I am the speakers for people to listen...<br />I am the microphone for you to spit them...<br /><br />This is our worhip...<br /><br />I open, you pour in...<br />I let out...You draw in...<br />My mouth stays shut...Your arms open...<br /><br />God is not a being..He is more than a person...<br />He is the air, I breathe...Until the spirit has returned home...<br />He is my worship....Eden's Gardenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14678084439049148181noreply@blogger.com1