I am sitting here laughing...
parked two cars down, you cheating on me...and I see you.
I want to hear the new excuse...
I find myself following you everyday, just to see what the new one looks like, and to hear the new excuse.
I am throwing up...
I lie here next to you, and cringe just thinking about all the nasty people you have been with... How their dirt and filth is all in between our marital sheets..
I find myself sick to my stomach when I look at you, and the things you do to me...
I am on a ramp page...
I have thrown all of your things in the trash and in bags, all over the front lawn, Bottles of colognes burned and all of your photos are gone...
I find myself getting rid of everything that is you, I used to get sick when I saw you now its the mere scent of you...
I am crying...
not of sorrow, but of joy... made room for a man of God...and threw away a boy
I find myself shouting, and praising God...For that reason only I sob.
I am different...
Everyday I wake up to clean sheets, and Joy in my heart..
Work outs and a brand new start... My own business, and my schedule only to follow...No longer smelling your unfaithfulness, no more lies do I have to swallow...
I find myself looking in the mirror and loving me, no longer dealing with mess, or a person who cant really stand me. I have a God upstairs that looks down on me with Real LOVE...Nothing can shake my faith, I feel his strength even from above. See God says to Delight yourself in him and he will give me the desires of my heart. So much time wasted I don't know where to start. God is my everything, and you are just a faint memory. You are the mere image of what a man isn't supposed to be. I am happy, I am shouting and there's nothing you can do. Because, Today my past mistake...I find myself without you....
This blog is just for me to write memoirs...and for others to comment.Its a collection of my copy written poems, short stories, and thoughts...
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Enjoying God through experience...
Go to God in prayer. If you are hungry for him , cry out to be filled. He will fill you" with an inexpressible and glorious joy" (1Pet 1:8) Thank God that he is drawing you to himself. If you do not have this hunger ask God to fill you with desire for him, to extend your intellectual beliefs about him from your head to your heart. Pray that you may "grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ....So that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God" (Ephesians 3:18-19)
Enjoying God through the word....
Read John 6:35-66 This teaching of Jesus brings about a parting of the ways: From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him" (Jn 6:66). What is so offensive brings life Jn 6:53-55. Without Jesus you cannot have eternal life. You must go beyond intellectual belief to a life sustaining relationship. your relationship with Jesus is your life. Unfortunately, this is where many refuse to follow. If you are hungry for Jesus, praise GOD! He is drawing you to himself. Be thankful for your thirst God is working in your life! Danger comes from those who are not water out of the room. Jesus says to the Pharisees, "You shut the kingdom of heaven in men's Faces. You Y9ourselves do not enter, nor will you let those enter who are trying to" Matt 23:13 If you are hungry for Jesus, reach out to him. Don't allow anyone or anything to stand between you and the one who can satisfy.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
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