Venting....the Have Nots

I have confused my have nots for desires...
Tried to figure out why things aren't the way I would like them to be...
Trying to box in the solution, when the problem is me...
My thinking, my mentality...

I new year brings new fears of hope
But if you can't swallow the change, then you will choke
the people closest to you, will hurt you the most
SO I push off, back and I wait

I debate, to see if you are worthy to be loved by me
I see that you believe that you love is the key to my locked heart,
The more I drew near, the further we pushed apart...

Its crazy, because I think you could care even less
the love you profess,
I don't believe
so leave, leave me, my heart and space alone
Your treachery is proven, and lies has already been unfold
I told you the truth about my have nots
But I open the chest to show you yours...

You no longer have a friend,
You no longer have a shoulder to cry on,
You no longer have a heart to hide in,
A space to live in,
You no longer have me...

Welcome to the have nots...

Just Sharing the Word of The Living God....Jesus Christ

Our Joy, Our ability to laugh in the face of difficulties, has more to do with how we view God than how he views us. At times many of us fear that maybe God isnt all that interested in our lives. We've been taught the "his eye is on the sparrow so we know he watches us" mentality, but we are far from convinced. Jeremiah 1: talks about "God knows us, He knew us before we were formed in our mothers stomache"(paraphrased please look up in text). Sometimes we see our lives running counter to our desires, wishes and prayers; we then assume God doesn't care. When these Kinds of thoughts take over and undermine our faith, we have ceased to live in response to the abundance of God. The Key word in this phrase is response. Most of us have a good head knowledge of God's abundance, but we often find ourselves unable to respond to that abundance. That inability to respond possibly comes from a growing fear that God is truly unaware of where we are and how we are. When this happens, we need bolstering an dthere's no better source for faith bolstering than Gods living word...I am not on a Haphazard course of my own poor choosing. Psalm 16:11 assures me, "you have made known to me the path of life," I choose to believe God will indeed make life's path known to me, and that where I am on that path is no surprise to him.