Made for me...

Is it just me...
but the decisions that change your life the most...
really don't give you much time to decide...

Which path is right...
Do I go left and continue where I left off last...
But even God says its not good to live in the past...

Do I go right...
In pursue what is new...
Keep going to seek the correct view...

One guy... the night, like the wolf
he'll stray...
come back, and every command he'll obey...

Other guy... the day, like the sun..
hard worker, the stresser...
the new life I've begun...

People say...
Girl, leave that wolf be...
At times I think they are right...
but he just might be the one for me...

So, what do I do...
I leave both alone...
neither one are ready...
Neither one are grown...

They are both minors to me
merely a show to see
How big they have become in stature...
But they're mindstates begates laughter...

for they are as young as the morning dew...
and last just as long...
I could be wrong...
but its best not to play games...

cut all ties and stay away...
so my decision has been made...

Walking Alone

In all of my 23 years of living, I have learned that becoming perfect without guidance is both hard and self destructive. I have learned that even the holiest of people are still sinning. No one walking this earth is perfect. I can honestly admit that I have sinned and continued to sin knowing God is not pleased with my life. He has taken my joy, my love, my worldly possession away at one time and left me all alone, just to show me that he is all that I need. I have to admit though, it was a lonely time for me. The only reason people are successful at being "SAVED" is because they have help. Accountability partners, friends who live their life according to the word of GOD. Today, June 1st, 2010 I can say that I don't have any friends, no real ones. NO ONE is consistent enough in their walk to be honest and bare my sins to them. God says that "Iron sharpens Iron" but I am around nothing but brass, and wood. It breaks my heart to think that I could ever put my trust in the people that I have known all my life knowing they will ultimately fail. God knows that I desire to be strong enough to stand alone and powerful enough to draw people into his kindgom. But I am being honest and realizing that will never happen if I continue to stay around "lukewarm", selfish, compromising, christians. They are human just like I am. Once upon a time, I was with nothin but holy rollers, and I was MISERABLE. Because their holiness was conditional, their love was temporal, and I could not trust them as far as I could pick them up and throw them. The one thing I mostly ask God for are true believers, people that will not abandon me, backbite me, or lie to me. I ask God for people that I can commune with on a daily basis, hold me accountable for my actions, and love me thru my stumbles... If there are such people out there, and I am and have been reaching out... then answer this for me... Why am I still walking alone?