Venting...

The past few months have been just a blur....
Times past, friendships last as long as the sun...
Been there done that.... is what I told him...
Don't need another ornament to hang on me...
I don't want to be a cheap thrill for him...
Not going to cheat me out of my life is what I told him...

Can't make into what I would like you to be...
I am not the potter...
It's just some things you should have learned from your father...
Your mother, I can never be...
That life of teaching you is just not for me...
I can't see myself, marrying a child...
A clown, and nothing brighter than the clothes you wear...
I stare, because You have so much potential...
Influential, Your thoughts were to me...
Now I see, they were just thoughts... No life behind the words...
No courage to see them thru... So, despair, I am talking to you...
I am no longer looking to be with you... No longer looking for you to control the very fiber of my life...
A wife is what I will be...
A graduate is what I have proven to be...
A survivor is what I will always be...
A child of the most high GOD is what was chosen of me...