I lie down, motionless..
feeling emotiionless
living without focus
have so many talents, but can't make the most of them.
Torn, between dreams and reality
trying to build a bridge where the two can meet
look in the mirror and see two different me's'
I see a girl 5'3 with an average build
egyptian eyes, secrets filled
I am a fraud in one dimension
embarrassed by the truth, so I will not mention
what am I doing, who am I and where will I be?
I have an updated perscription but I still can't see
So I stop,
I kneel,
I ask God to begin to reveal
What God, What do you see?
Right now, I can't see beyond me...
Well daughter that's because you are selfish...
until you feel for someone else
your life will feel breathless
God I need help, God please send me help
I have equipped you with what you need, so look up and stop blaming yourself.
I, God feel like I am a lost hope
Filled with all type of bad memories,
drowning, and trying to stay afloat.
God hear me, not really trying to yell...
God help me to ensure I won't fail
All I know is I have a story to tell...
slowly but surely it will unveil...
so just keep reading...
This blog is just for me to write memoirs...and for others to comment.Its a collection of my copy written poems, short stories, and thoughts...
Friday, November 6, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
God says...
Although my feelings feel real
God says, "the heart is deceitful, who can tame it?
Although the world around me says to live life to the fullest..
God says, "Be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.(Romans 12:9)
Although I am not worthy
God says, I am the apple of his, before I was formed in my mother womb he new me (Jeremiah 1)
This is the Truth, although you read all the scriptures and like my poems this is what the Lord says to just the proclaimers and not the doers of his word...Jeremiah 23: Woe to the shepherds who are destroying and scattering the sheep of my pasture! Declares the Lord. Therefore this is what the Lord the God of Israel, says to the shepherds who tend my people: "Because you have scattered my flock on them, I will bestow punishment on you for the evil you have done, " Declares the Lord. I myself will gather the remnant of my flock out of all the countries where I have driven them and will bring them back to their pastrue, where they will be fruitful and increase in numbe. I will place shepherds over them who will rend them and they will no longer be afraid or terrified, nor will any be missing, declares the Lord. If God does not lead you to speak, then don't speak! I have learned that even if you want to encourage someone, ask God what to say to that person, because what you want to say may not be the same as what God wants them to hear. God bless you all!
God says, "the heart is deceitful, who can tame it?
Although the world around me says to live life to the fullest..
God says, "Be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.(Romans 12:9)
Although I am not worthy
God says, I am the apple of his, before I was formed in my mother womb he new me (Jeremiah 1)
This is the Truth, although you read all the scriptures and like my poems this is what the Lord says to just the proclaimers and not the doers of his word...Jeremiah 23: Woe to the shepherds who are destroying and scattering the sheep of my pasture! Declares the Lord. Therefore this is what the Lord the God of Israel, says to the shepherds who tend my people: "Because you have scattered my flock on them, I will bestow punishment on you for the evil you have done, " Declares the Lord. I myself will gather the remnant of my flock out of all the countries where I have driven them and will bring them back to their pastrue, where they will be fruitful and increase in numbe. I will place shepherds over them who will rend them and they will no longer be afraid or terrified, nor will any be missing, declares the Lord. If God does not lead you to speak, then don't speak! I have learned that even if you want to encourage someone, ask God what to say to that person, because what you want to say may not be the same as what God wants them to hear. God bless you all!
Monday, November 2, 2009
I asked God
In my time of prayer I knelt
To tell the Most High how I felt
to confess my sins and other filth
hoping our bridge would be rebuilt...
I confessed about the materialist lusts
my bills, wills, and all the unjust
tears streaming because of my rutt
God healed me with just one touch...
He says hello my daughter I was waiting on your call
Just a matter of time before you fall
You can't go a whole day and not speak to me at all
Come to me, and I will draw near
In my word speaks a true love so don't fear
I love you so much my dear, I hear...
I say God please hear my crying plea
if you would not punishment for all the deceit
I promise to do better just wait and see
I am here by myself walking thru this journey.
He says you are alone because you choose to be,
find loving people with my spirit, in your chosen ministry
Be careful for those who look like me,
devils they are in sheeps clothing
I say God, but I am afraid
He says I built you as sturdy as a tree
For you to bear fruit and be strong spiritually
so pray for guidance and I will lead thee.
God I am praying, and praying, but do you really hear
you say you will draw close, but you don't seem near
I shut my mouth so your voice I may hear
But your silence is evident, its so loud and clear
Where is your faith daughter, I am standing right here
God I need your love, I am failing down here
I am around so much murder, so much despair
what do I go, who seems to care
God says: Cast your cares upon me I truly want to know
all about you inside including the feelings you don't show.
I am more than a God above your head, I am he who records all the tears you have shed. I am he who is ruler of all, both big accurances and small, I am your protector so do not fear, If you draw close than I am near.
God hear me and take heed
you are who I desire most, you are all I need. So when doubt tries to over come me I will say I believe in all that God says, it will rebut and say how do you know...I will reply because I asked God...Thank you God, I love you!
To tell the Most High how I felt
to confess my sins and other filth
hoping our bridge would be rebuilt...
I confessed about the materialist lusts
my bills, wills, and all the unjust
tears streaming because of my rutt
God healed me with just one touch...
He says hello my daughter I was waiting on your call
Just a matter of time before you fall
You can't go a whole day and not speak to me at all
Come to me, and I will draw near
In my word speaks a true love so don't fear
I love you so much my dear, I hear...
I say God please hear my crying plea
if you would not punishment for all the deceit
I promise to do better just wait and see
I am here by myself walking thru this journey.
He says you are alone because you choose to be,
find loving people with my spirit, in your chosen ministry
Be careful for those who look like me,
devils they are in sheeps clothing
I say God, but I am afraid
He says I built you as sturdy as a tree
For you to bear fruit and be strong spiritually
so pray for guidance and I will lead thee.
God I am praying, and praying, but do you really hear
you say you will draw close, but you don't seem near
I shut my mouth so your voice I may hear
But your silence is evident, its so loud and clear
Where is your faith daughter, I am standing right here
God I need your love, I am failing down here
I am around so much murder, so much despair
what do I go, who seems to care
God says: Cast your cares upon me I truly want to know
all about you inside including the feelings you don't show.
I am more than a God above your head, I am he who records all the tears you have shed. I am he who is ruler of all, both big accurances and small, I am your protector so do not fear, If you draw close than I am near.
God hear me and take heed
you are who I desire most, you are all I need. So when doubt tries to over come me I will say I believe in all that God says, it will rebut and say how do you know...I will reply because I asked God...Thank you God, I love you!
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